so sick of me

im really very sick of myself sometimes.
sigh..i hate to graduate.
its so damn useless bumping at home.
yes im looking very hard for jobs,trying to ace the interview so i can earn my own money.
but im so sick and tired of looking through the papers,sending in resumes for jobs that im NEVER interested in.

seriously i feel like not moving on,but again i CANNOT not move on.this month seem to pass on fast,and im still stuck jobless!
man..i feel absolutely so lousy whenever i think of this.

maybe i should just consider taking up any childhood or NIE related courses,coz that is the only area,so far,that i find myself interested to work in.

you think i like handling admin work,handling customers' complaints,dealing HR admin work when these are e only few jobs i can venture in as a fresh graduate.

im kinda tired of gg to one interview after the other,when im not the eventual one that they will be selecting.
as lousy as i maybe right now...i guess i had no choice but keep doing what i can do to bring my parents some hope.

when can i lead a life i want my life to be?
here in Singapore?i doubt so!